November 15, 2002

• Yes, it's been awhile since I updated. Things have been really crappy around here.
  
  For those who don't know, here's the scoop:
  
  I go to a law school here in North Florida. I have (or should I say had?) some friends here on campus. They are not my only friends, but they are some of the first friends I met. One of them I will call J. The other I will call JS.
  
  So, J and JS both have drug issues. JS in fact has SERIOUS drug problems. And over the last year, JS's problems have been getting progressively worse. And in the last 6 weeks or so he's started acting really weird. He's been looking at web sites for how to make bombs and also to purchase guns. And he told J "I am planning something big, but I cannot tell you for your safety."
  
  J told me.
  
  I, after agonizing over it for several weeks, and telling J to go to the administration herself, decided to go to the administration. JS is pretty well fucked up, and I was uncertain whether he posed a threat to anyone. And after what has been happening recently at professional schools, I figured better safe than sorry.
  
  So, I went and played the narc. And the administration went to the campus police. And the campus police went to JS's house. And JS got angry at J because apparently some of the stuff she told me he had told only her.
  
  So, last week, J took JS to the student health center. And from the student health center, JS was taken to the psych ward in a local hospital. Since then, JS has not been at school. J, when she was still talking to me, told me that his parents were coming up here and that she expected JS would be withdrawn from school.
  
  He's been having many problems in school over the past year too, and is very close to being flunked out. So, being withdrawn from school is not really a big deal for him.
  
  So, about a week ago, J tells me she is angry at me for betraying her confidence, and that JS was no threat to anyone but himself.
  
  Well, if that is the case, then he needed help.
  
  And if that is not the case, then someone needed to be warned. I am sure that people knew about how unstable the boys at Columbine were, or that guy at Appalachian School of Law, and nobody said anything, and then it was too late.
  
  Joking about stuff like that, even if that is all JS was doing, is just like joking about carrying a bomb in an airport, if you ask me.
  
  So, J and I have a class together on Wednesday afternoons. And she came to class two days ago, did not say a word to me. In response, I did not say a word to her. At the break (the class is 4 hours long), she mumbled something about not being able to handle being there and left the class. Whatever.
  
  I think I have figured out what her problem is. I may be wrong, I may be acting vicious - but you tell me what you think.
  
  In our second year at school, a good friend of ours, C, died. He had some kind of chronic immune deficiency. And after he died J got a lot of attention, got to play the tragic heroine essentially. He was, after all her "best friend."
  
  So, one of J's good friends attends Appalachian School of Law, let's call her A. So A was there when that guy went crazy. And he killed one of A's favorite professors.
  
  So, before J had decided to quit talking to me, she said something to the effect of: "Law School sucks, first my best friend dies, and then the guy that I slept with goes nuts."
  
  I am not sure, but I think she was just waiting for JS to either kill himself or go crazy and kill some people at the school so she could have the tragic heroine spotlight again.
  
  Yes, she IS that fucked up.
  
  So, she's no longer talking to me. I really don't want anything to do with her. And I am fairly certain she is bad-mouthing me to some of my classmates. Not that I care. Those who are my real friends will ask me about it.
  
  I've not told anyone at school about JS and what he was doing, except the administration, of course. I figure it is no one's business what is going on. So, in that respect I am maintaining J's confidences. I mean, I could tell everyone I know about what happened. But I haven't. I like to think I am a somewhat better person than that.
  
  So, that is how the last 10 days or so have been. Lovely, huh?
  
  In answer to some questions my last entries raised -
  
  Deadstar, my hair was down to my waist when I got it cut.
  
  QC and Belle, I am moving to Portland, Oregon as soon as law school is over.
  
  ***
  I am really hating school right now - it feels like a soap opera. And a very juvenile one at that.
  
  Stay tuned for the next installment of "Law School Sucks - the Ultimate Reality Program."

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